Raw and Uncut:
Emotions that I have been feeling lately-
Happy- The past week has been a great one. I’ve been extremely busy with adventures and activities; so busy that I haven’t had time to be plagued with a lot of inner struggle. Friends are good. Family is good. Life has been good. Working to see every day as one worth living.
Conflicted- Despite feeling good about where everything is in my life, I can’t shake the feeling of uneasiness. I have so many questions that I want answered, I want so many things to happen, I am constantly consumed by my own thoughts to the point where I lose track of the outside world.
Lost- Even with an incredible support system, I always feel like I’m wandering in the dark without a flashlight. This feeling has been escalated by the end of college nearing. I’m the type of person who needs purpose to function. I need a plan, I need a path to take. Ever since my sister passed away, I have been struggling with figuring out my next move. I don’t know what the next chapter in my life is going to be.
Excited- The opportunities that we are given in today’s society are incredible. Every morning, I try to submerge myself in successful people. Once I begin to think of what the future may hold, I become immobilized by excitement. The possibilities are endless.
Overwhelmed- Growing up comes with a lot of responsibilities. In a lot of instances, they are thrown on you extremely fast. I don’t do well with handling a barrage of “life”, I get overwhelmed easily and anxiety is tough to break once you fall under its spell. I’m focusing on working towards peace of mind in everything that I do. I want to enjoy life, not fear it.